Well, Yesterday was my birthday. Which to meant i get to spend the day how I want. Now that the day is past, I feel like it really isn't my day anymore. Its a day like any other. A day to clean, wash dishes, feed everyone.(I got out of the last part by going out to dinner, except that i had a cake at home and now need to wash dishes from cake) I think I have finally realized that while my kids are young, my life is not my own nor will it be for a long time...possibly when i die, but even then? probably not. I feel unsure how to continue being myself and yet be a good mommy and wife.
today I am picking up the house, the dishes and the laundry. I am most sad that after not doing anything for a day that the world didnt see that it was my birthday and that on my birthday the laundry is supposed to do its self like mickey's brooms in fantasia without the bigger mess at the end.
It seems like being myself would be a selfish desire, yet, as i have started reading Parenting with Love and Logic i realize that being myself is the best example for my children. I have only read the first chapter and have realized that i may appear to not care much about what my children do, i find myself being overprotective, which really doesn't help them out in life. The book gives the example of God being a loving and caring parent to mankind, yet he allows us to make mistakes, even if it means jumping off the tallest building in the world. (just an fyi the world's tallest man-made structure is the 829.8 m (2,722 ft) tall Burj Khalifain Dubai)
the book suggests (against my mommy feelings) that being hit in the nose by a bully or falling off the table is a life lesson worth the cost of pain. yet, my mommy feelings want to rescue him from the situations....so, what do you think?
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